2012.

This is going to be my year.

I know it is so cliche, but I feel as though its application to me surpasses that of everyone else. (Sorry dudes). I worked so freaking hard in 2011 to get where I am now, and that is the beginning
**Cue paradoxical music

I will take risks. Because it is impossible to live without failing, unless you live so caustiosly that you might as well not lived at all; in which case, you fail by default
                       - J.K Rowling

This year I will be starting a double degree:
Bachelor of Design in Fashion textiles Bachelor of Arts in International Studies

After accepting the fact I would never get the marks to make it into the degree, when I did, I was absolutely stoked on life. I think success depends on how hard you try, it's not a measure of intelligence, simply determination and an unwillingness to fail. And because of that, I think everyones success or failure solely reflects their efforts, thus my 97.15 reflects one hell of an effort.

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My friends and I have this thing that however you spend your first moments of the New Year is a pre cursor to how your year will unfold. I could not have asked for a better night. Seeing everyone that matters, then watching the fireworks in the city, arm in arm with my best friends. 

ONE ESH NIGHT.

I decided I wanted to start the new year with a fresh and fun change. Thus I went with pink hair. At first I was super excited about the change, until I realised it is really difficult to colour co-ordinate with such a deafening colour, forced to continuously colour block.

Dress: From some asian shop

Bag: Forever new

Shoe: Black suede 

The bestest of friends. 

SCHOOLIES... more like school lies.

SCHOOLIES MO FOCKERS!

Spending 4 days with the most important people in my life. I could not ask for a more amazing Schoolies experience.

1. Cooking 15 packets of easy mac at one time

2. Waking up way too early then having way too much time on our hands for our own good

3. Getting way too serious about monopoly

4. Listening to Lmfao all day..... everyday

5. Not wearing shoes in public places

6. Playing tips in Erina Fair

7. Making the same joke to Eren, that we are going to Erena Fair

8. Religiously watching Honey 

9. Respecting Omar for his domestication

10. Wearing wigs and stupid hats in public

11. Dyeing everyones hair red

12. Going ice-skating despite staying on the beach

13. Adopting a guinea pig

14. Casually staging a proposal in the middle of the food court, followed by a break up because we have nothing better to do
15. Choreographing and filming routines to Pumped up kicks
16. Playing Taboo at ungodly hours
17. Finding dogs
18. Having a diary room and filming everyones confessions

I will remember those four days for the rest of my life. <3

Freedom

The HSC is over. I have honestly been fearing the HSC since I was in year 5, and now that it's over I feel so free. But this new found freedom comes with a sense of loss. :( No more Highschool. No more uniforms. No more running away from teachers because you aren't actually wearing the proper uniform. No more living life according to monotonous bell rings. No more asking to pee. No more overpriced sushi. No more watching students flirt with teachers (actually this could potentially happen in university).No more oppression. No more spending all day with my favourite people. 

The entire year 12 grade is or was alarmingly close. Every individual is so lovely and kind (and absurdly well dressed).

I am so grateful that I have met such amazing people They have influenced me to become a better me. More driven, more enthusiastic, more selfless and more loving. (warning:Getting a little sentimental). The memories of Highschool will always be with me, and in 20 years time I will look back on these moments as the best time of my life. Oh yeah.

Design and technology major work

I finally handed in my major work today. After months of having thread and pins scattered in every room of the house i am so happy to no longer wake up on the kitchen floor caressing my a3 paper blanket. I don't think you could imagine the amount of thread that i come across on a day to day basis, and I'm not going to lie, one time i found some in my underpants. Eh.

So after two long nights of energy drinks, no-doz and homemade video clips I finally finished my portfolio.

Here is some deep paragraph I wrote. Eh it is basically my soul. Design is something i wish to pursue so yea. bam. 

“Today’s society is drowning in the ever-changing idea of what is “cool” and what is perceived as “acceptable”. Consumerism lurks everywhere, in your home, on your Internet, on your Television, on your street and even on you, as you parade around branded by what you wear. This consumerist monster tells you what to put on in the morning, it tells you where to buy it. Flicking through your Frankie magazine you think you are deciding what you want. Trends only last 1-2 weeks, you watch the Money fly out of your Anna Sui wallet. Individualism is unattainable, even by not conforming to mainstream fashion you are conforming to those whom too choose not to follow conventional style. You may think you make your own decisions, but you don’t.
The solution to this manifestation of uncreative souls? My design, you”

Jessica Guzman

Design brief:

“Design and market an economic autumn collection for women that challenges conventional fashion and encourages eccentricity, individualism and life experience”

Motivation for ideas:

After investigating the reasons behind the growing trend of op shopping, thought to be because of the financial recession, it was discovered that some consumers no longer want to conform to mainstream fashion, but are slowly beginning to uncover the possibilities of alternative style. This emerging market motivated the idea of “untied”. Furthermore, societies growing addiction with self-image is affecting women mentally, physically and socially all around the world. The opportunity to let women self-express through fashion regardless of their socio-economic status was my motivation.

Crotchet collars

Tied-dye chiffon blouse

Silk high wasited box pleated shorts

Satin box pleats skirt

Rosettes on skirt are removable

Butter seude corset

All outfits (excluding socks and shoes) were designed and produced by myself. 

Cognitive time travel.

Okay i look way too happy for my own good.

Varsity Jacket: ASOS

Pants: Minas cupboard

Shirt: General Pants

Belt: ASOS

Shoes: Leather Air Forces (cause this bitch gonna shank you)

Shitty hair job: Your own fault Jessica

My life = BON IVER BON IVER BON IVER + trashy Dubstep

DON'T YOU JUST WANT TO EAT HER!!!!

Kiss of death

One teaspoon. 

So not only does the name of this amazing dress remind me of the dementors in Harry Potter, but I am head over heels in love (excuse the tacky cliche).  So I fell in love with this dress last year, I tried it on, and was like JIZZ JIZZ JIZZ. Then a couple weeks later it sold out. BAM. Life is destroyed. 

BUT I JUST FOUND IT ONLINE. Cyber JIZZ JIZZ JIZZ!! 

So in the couple weeks I have been hibernating, here is "what's new" in order of priority. 

1. A dog ran into the school. I chased after it for a while

2. Got myself one fine looking boyfriend. :)

3. I got out of detention by playing the "I had to use the year 7 toilets because period was trickling down my leg" card, and making the male teacher feel uber uncomfortable. 

4. Finally got my Varsity jacket. Oh yeah. 

5. Realised that babey apparently doesn't have an e. 

Attempted to cut a front fringe, got up to cutting a strand, then chickened out. Now I look like Elvis.   

6. Organised a "Wear your school jumper backwards day" at school. 

7. Finally got the "Sex talk" in the car on the way to school. Mum is pretty smart, she knew I wouldn't have the balls to jump from a moving vehicle. 

7. Apparently some "Osama" character died? Yeah. not important.

 Done and Done

Sycamore tree

F L I P P E D

Some of us get dipped in flat, some in satin, some in gloss; but every once in a while, you find someone who's iridescent, and once you do, nothing will ever compare. 

So a friend recommended me this movie last year, and it is seriously absolutely amazing. I thought it was pretty old until i saw it at the movie shop as "new release". I know "cool story bro", but it is seriously is so adorable/artistic/heart warming/holy shit excuse me while i squeeze this teddy bear to death because this movie is so good/and yup...I just peed a little.

check it out. Or you can just check me out. That's cool too.